The memory that keeps running through my mind is one that happened right before The Captain was born. Rob and I had just arrived after a long night of travel, at the hospital in Iowa. Meredith had the slight daze of someone who had just been hooked up with some much needed drugs. Linda was sitting on the couch looking a little tired, a little apprehensive of what was to come. She looked up at us and asked, ‘Are you excited?’ Rob and I stammered around, unable to even comprehend the question – OF COURSE we were excited. This was the moment we had been waiting for our entire lives. A moment that at one time we I thought might never come. In every sense, our ultimate dream was coming true. We had been reminded by counselors that this was not the same joyous time for the birthmother and her family that it was for the adoptive parents. Perhaps we walked in with some of those thoughts in our head. Perhaps we had the nervous anticipation that I would imagine most about-to-be first time parents experience on the verge of the complete metamorphosis that is about to happen in their lives – hoping we were prepared to be the very best parents we could possibly be to this little baby. Anxious to meet our son. Wondering what the heck we would name him.
Whatever our emotions were, we were definitely excited. And Linda gave us an incredible gift by telling us that they wanted and needed to feel that excitement. But what strikes me now is that we had no idea how excited we actually should have been. We were like kids who had been told about Disneyland, but had never actually been there. And we were about to walk in the front gate and see the tip of the castle in the magic kingdom. We had no idea how good it was actually going to be.
And now, 5 months later, I’m starting to get it. I’m starting to realize that as good as it is, it still gets better every single day. I still have the desire to freeze and preserve every stage, but I’m getting better at soaking up each moment – letting it expand my heart and change my world. Because I know that in a strange way, even the memories get sweeter over time. Everything moves so fast, but over time memories can spread out and relax, and plant themselves firmly in my being. Memories of the time in the hospital with Meredith and her family and the selfless gift she gave by letting us be there with her and experience all of it. The awe of that very first night in the hospital with our baby sleeping in a little rolling cart right next to us. Memories of Iowa, of our parents all together in the hotel room politely fighting over who got to hold the baby next. Of the little lump of a baby curled up on my shoulder five months ago, grunting in my ear. It all just get more precious to me over time. I miss all of it, but it’s also mine forever.
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The happiest and most exciting five months of my life.
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